What to do...

I have started praying a prayer lately. A prayer that God would open my eyes to the world, show me those that are hurting, give me wisdom to know how to help. There was a particular song that sparked this prayer: Give Me Your Eyes by Brandon Heath - you can find in on youtube HERE.

I'm so at a loss to blog right now... my heart is broken and I want to pour it out here but I don't even know the words.

My life has been an interesting road. I would love to say I wouldn't wish any of my past away, but there is still a part of me that would like to erase many things that have happened in my life despite the fact that it has made me who I am. Yes, I have learned many life lessons and grown spirtually in ways that I may not have had I not faced each of the "bad" events in my life....but still... I say all of this to set up why my heart is broken today....

I have been saying this prayer and I thought I truly meant it, but now that God has nudged me to do something with it...I'm terrified. I'm terrified because of who it might be that needs the reaching. I came across a blog today...a blog belonging to someone from the past (and for any person that might be freaking out...those that I'm closest to that know me best...no fear..this person is from LONG ago past :) ). This person is completely broken hearted and has been for quite some time... and for the first time I see it in an all new light. God loves this person and I should too. I need to reach out, but how do I reach out? This person may not want contact from me, I'm a reminder of a painful memory...

Like I said... my words are scattered. I'm trying to think through this, perhaps that is the problem. Perhaps I shouldn't be typing here but praying and asking God to show me what I should do. I want to reach out to the brokenhearted... I do...but how?

AAAAAH.... what to do... what to do...