Wow. It's hard to believe that another school year is complete at BRCA. We just posted final report cards today. This year has been another doozy for me. I learned a lot about myself this year...some of it not so pleasant. I've grown as a person and as a mother in amazing ways and I've finally found myself running towards God (though I sometimes get sidetracked still). I have grown friendships deeper and made new friends that I hope will last. I've watched all these kids grow before my very eyes and it's hard to believe that they are growing as fast as they are. I said my tearful goodbyes to the ones that weren't coming back and already can't wait to see those that are coming back!
It's funny how much life and relationships can change in such a short amount of time. Maybe funny isn't the right word. Some of the changes have been great...and some are working for the good (as God promises!). I look back on this past school year with LOTS of tears and LOTS of smiles. I learned many lessons about various things (like when to talk and when to walk...). I'm learning to trust other women again...which is good and scary for me all at the same time. I've been hurt by other women in my life a great deal over the course of my 25 (yes...25..wow) years. I've suddently realized that for some reason I try my best to keep other women out...as I'm sure that some of my new girlfriends have noticed. It's hard for me to open up to other girls b/c they might find out who I really am...and what if they don't like who I really am? This year has been a great lesson in opening up. I had a major catastrophe on my hands earlier this year...and if it weren't for some very important women in my life...well let's not even think about where I might be right now and what lives I may have ruined or damaged. Thank you to those ladies, you are truly women of God and looked past the yucky me to see me and love me...my black heart and all.
I look forward to what this summer brings and what next school year entails. I'm trusting God to finish this great work in me that he has started. He is healing me and mending my heart...as long as I continue to hold it out to him. Pray with me that I will run for him daily...that I will bask in his greatness and know that where I am weak, he is strong. Pray with me that I will continue to be open and honest to the ladies that God has brought into my life and that I will grow and nurture healthy relationships with them as he has provided. God knows my needs and he has provided a strong support group as long as I will lean into them.
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