Ok, so I'm not very good at keeping this thing updated. It's been quite a while since I posted last. Life has gotten crazy ....CRAZY busy.
I'm in school. Which is good...and bad. It's good that I'm finally working on finishing my degree. Bad that it requires time which means I have to sacrifice time. However, as Joel keeps reassuring me, it will be well worth it in the end.
I've also jumpstarted a photography business. And boy did I ever jump start it! I took on the project of BRCA school pictures. I never thought that doing the school pictures would be so very time consuming. I have spent every free moment pouring over these pictures and I FINALLY got them out this weekend. I was only 1 1/2 weeks behind my own schedule. I'm pretty sure that I have put at least 40 hours in to this project. Overall I'm pleased with the outcome, I just hope everyone else is pleased as well.
Work is always busy - always. I hardly get time to turn around most days. I'm trying my best to keep a positive attitude and hang on to a verse that you will find attached to my desk within view at all times. "O God, listen to my cry! Hear my prayer! From the ends of the earth, I cry to you for help when my heart is overwhelmed. Lead me to the towering rock of safety, for you are my safe refuge...Let me live forever in your sanctuary, safe beneath the shelter of your wings!" Psalm 61:1-4 That verse keeps my head in a good place. Right next to that is my reminder card about the 5 rules of communiation. So far, and we are only in October, I have done okay. I must admit, I have hard days where I am frustrated and I really want to vent. However, I have learned, it is not necessarily healthy for me or whoever I vent to. I'm learning to vent to God and 9 times out of 10, it's my attitude that is the problem of it all. God's moving in my life on the work front...I'm just trying to figure out exactly what it is he is doing.
As for the kids, wow are they getting big. Emmelyn is learning to read! Wow, I can't believe she is so big. William is full fledge walking...almost running. Yes, he is still falling down here and there, but he is officially a toddler. My heart hurts and jumps for joy all at the same time. I love being a mommy, but I hate missing out on so much that goes on during the day while I'm working. My heart is at home with my kids...and sometimes it's thought that my heart should be in my job. My heart will forever be wrapped among the bundles of joy that God chose to bestow upon me. All of this leads me to my biggest issue in life right now... I have baby fever...and BAD.
I want another baby. I want 2 or 3 more babies. I suddenly have this overwhelming urge to have a big family. I am certain that God intends to add another child to our family at some point. I am praying daily that God will either take the urge away or make a way for it to be possible. I know he is God and that he can do anything... I need him to do something on this front. My heart yearns for another baby but my mind knows it would be extremely unwise at this point in our lives. Once again I fall back on Psalm 61 - "I cry to you for help when my heart is overwhelmed..." I know that it applies in this situation too...
Okay... well that is all my rambling for now. Tune in next time...same bat time...same bat channel (ok...so maybe not...but you get the point)
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